Wow, have I been inundated with emails and messages, or what....? I am overwhelmed at how many people took the time, out of their very busy lives to communicate their thoughts with me,Thank you, thank you from the very bottom of my heart. I have spent most of the day in tears whilst reading. So many of you said that I struck a very definite chord, and that it could have been you talking, if you had my courage.! Not so sure about the courage bit, more like a bit gung ho..!!! As I said, I didn't want sympathy, or reinforcing of my art or even fixing. I just needed to get it out and explain, this is me, this is who I am.
A message I heard from many of you, whether you have similar feelings to me, or whether you where the total opposite and suffering from depression, was how you didn't talk about it. How you were embarrassed and ashamed and that nobody knew. I used to feel the same way, but now the more people know the easier it is for me.Having to hide and play a different character is very, very draining, and the freedom I have found from opening up is very freeing. Cue for another of my many, many quotes.....
“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” ~ maya angelou
Big thank you to Janey B for the words to the Shirley Bassey song I posted earlier. From now on this will be my anthem, the one I turn to when I need reassurance and acceptance. Mind you I am not sure about the bit about feathers and spangles...I might just have to change that from
And so what if I love eachfeather and each spangle
Why not try and see things
from a different angle
And so what if I love eachjournal and each spray
Why not try and see things
in a different way........!!!! Better ???
The Bank Manager was great, I dazzled him with my enthusiasm. I did explain to him at the start, that I was in the middle of a manic hyper and he took it all in his stride. Mind you he is used to me, and when he was leaving he said he wouldn't really have known there was anything different about me, lol.. Having spent most of the day with him and the rest on the phone to America, I feel as though I am coming back over the hill. I am by no means calm but I know the worst is behind me. I have even eaten. Oh yes, I cooked me some salmon fillets, broccoli cheese and cabbage. Happy days and fingers crossed, until the next time. I wish us all peace in head and heart.
Made this little beauty , this afternoon. It is your commemorative ticket if you are booked on The Lord of Holtz's classes next week. I think he looks rather charming with a spider dangling from his ear, don't you..??
This is the master, which is going to the printers first thing in the morning. Hopefully it will be back as soon as and we can post them out to you. The ticket is not needed to gain entry, so if any of you would prefer to collect it on the day, and not risk our wonderful.!!! Royal Mail, please let us know
Ooh and just to tease you a little bit more ..... what do you think these might be...???
Here's a clue, It was posted on Twitter by Mario..!!!
BIG TICKET NEWS
Those of you waiting to see how to get your hands on the last, remaining, Willa Wonka style ticket, keep your eye on the blog, tomorrow or the day after (depending on my state, lol). I will be posting what you have to do to be in with the running. Yayy.....!!!!! It could be you....!!!
And here's two more of the finished journal pages.
Yesterday I got the question asked that I get asked all the time....what magazines do you buy. Much to every ones disappointment, I do not buy bondage magazines, lol. I actually buy very high end magazines, bi-monthlies and even biannually sometimes. They obviously cost a lot more, and some people baulk at the idea of paying a lot to cut them up. But I feel they are worth every penny. You are not going to get such diverse images from Bella or woman's weekly.!!! The latest magazine I bought was at Schipol airport, a magazine full of B & W photography, for a whopping 18 euros. cough, cough....but it will be worth every penny. The magazines I buy are not available in just any store and are a lot harder to find now that Borders have gone, but sometimes I manage to get them ordered in and others are on subscription.
I'll try to remember as many titles as I can
Dazed and Confused
sheesh, that's a frikkin list and a half isn't it. There is no way I am linking all them so you will have to investigate on your own, lol.
I also frequent many second hand book shops for interesting books and I have a passion for collecting Taschen books ( my fave)
Anything with pin up girls, tattoos, cowboys or even slight fetish, then they are mine, lmao. I own more books and magazines than anything else, I think.
But saying all that I wouldn't be without my Sunday magazines, The Times, The telegraph, and the Mail on Sunday all have fabby topics and pictures. And Bezzie Su's British Medical Journal comes in handy many a time. Although some of the pictures of certain symptoms and diseases just don't bear thinking about, never mind journaling about.!!!
I'll leave you with two piccies from CHA and then I have to go reply to a million zillion messages, lol.
This pic was taken by my two show stalkers, the lovely Wendy Gale of The Stamp Attic (and source of all the best Stampington magazines.!!!) and the Peel Off queen herself ( ha ha I am now sooooooo dead) the delightful Sue Roddis. Not really my most flattering angle.!!
And here's a piccie of my American adopted Momma, the gorgeous Shirley. Can you see the likeness..??? lol