The canvas's are first collaged with decorative paper and then built up with layer after layer of glaze, adding to the depth and dimension. Halfway through they always look like a dogs dinner, but with perseverance and some slight titivation from me they blossom into stunning works of art.
Here's the finished canvases. Shelley (good luck on your Ashley Jackson course at the weekend)
Sandra, my little Northern Soulie mate, love her xx
Ali, who was so stunned that she produced such a piece.
Alison who very creatively bucked the trend and went for a flower.
Janet proud as punch!!
Dawn, who is camping out at the back of the studio..!!
Diane, who bless her didn't even flinch when I applied black all over her glazes..!! It made for a stunningly rich burgundy, honest.
And Pat. How big is that smile..?? lol
I am having a really bad week this week. Just when I thought I was starting to heal slightly, bang it comes and rolls over me like a tidal wave. The grief feels as strong at the moment as it did 11 wks ago. Its supposed to start getting better not worse and I was totally unprepared for it. Maybe I am just getting over the shock and numbness, but it is feeling so raw all over again.
My emotions are completely to pot and my concentration is shattered. I feel as though I want to stand in the middle of the studio and scream. Maybe the fact that the Histology report has just come back hasn't helped. Because of the circumstances of Mum,s death the Pathologist ordered extra investigations to be done, with the result being that the primary cancer was a particularly aggressive type of lung cancer, and the secondary cancer had spread through her bones. Even if it had been found earlier it would not have been treatable. Thankfully the heart attack saved her from a particularly drawn out and unpleasant death. Luckily she didn't suffer as much as she maybe would have, and that is such a blessing. Although it doesn't stop me from being a really selfish cow and wishing I could have had just one more day with her. I miss her so much and although I am surrounded by loving family and fantastic friends I feel so alone.
I know many feel that I should have moved on further by now, but I tell you what, I,m doing this my way. It really helped to talk about it in the early days, and then I didn't need to for ages. But I need to get this down at the moment and I am praying it will help.I will never again underestimate the power of someones grief and the overwhelming feelings of helplessness.. My thoughts are with anyone and everyone going through this awful process. Especially to one of my dear students, the lovely Jackie. I am thinking of you and sending you lots of love and healing thoughts.